Enough

Enough!!!   I have had enough of Me

How I think I should be

Who I think I should be

What I think I should say

How I think I should feel

Enough!!!

I need to get off Me

Leave me be

I remember Me

I look at photos of Me as a child and I see Me

I remember Me

Connected to the present Me

To alive, to laughter, to my loving heart, to now

Creative, power-full, nature child Me

I knew the emperor had no clothes on

Why did I think I couldn’t be Me

Why wasn’t Me enough

Did I have to lose Me to find Me

Maybe

Not being Me is exhausting Me

It’s using up all my Chi

It doesn’t replenish  Me

It’s time to get back to  Me

Stop wasting time not being  Me

What a great thing to contribute to life

Me

Servant

I command my mind

My mind is made up

It has decided

It's sure

It is as my mind sees and understands it to be

Yet again

Out of I know not where

Emotions jump up to the forefront

Contradicting the mind

Showing another side

The debate begins

The battle I know so well

I, losing control, con-fusing

Mind should-ing at me

Emotions whirling me in feelings

Fusing, con-fusing.  Fusing, con-fusing

Who will win this round?

Where am I?

Who is serving who?

Moon

The sun gives.

Physically, life grows; our bodies grow, planets grow.

Sun, yang, external, gives life force.

But what about spiritually?

Does it help us grow spiritually?

What's our soul’s relationship with the sun?

Moon, yin, internal;  does it take life force?

Is it a dying planet?

Or is it still growing and needs to be fed?

The law of nature or evolution is, life lives off life.

Who are we food for?

We being the highest living creatures on the food chain.

Full moon - we lose control.

It is said, if unaware, you are controlled by the planet’s forces.

If aware, you can control the effect of the planet’s forces on you.

Does that mean if we are not consciously conscious, 

We are food for the moon?

If I'm aware of what's eating me:

Ego, fear, trying to be, important, not important,

Will I stop being eaten by the “I am's” that I think I am,

Or by the moon?

Emotional Intelligence

I first heard the term emotional intelligence when I was a child.

My old Russians grandparents would talk about it.

I didn't understand what they meant at the time but

I could somehow feel the importance of the conversation

And the memory stayed with me.

Having grown up in Australia, I often went

Walkabout with my Aborigine friends.

The elders talked about how we have come to this planet

To learn to develop our emotional intelligence.

That's why we are born on this physical planet they say,

Why we are physical this time round, why we experience physical pain.

They told me the fastest vibration is emotion. It's even faster than light

So it's very hard for our consciousness to catch and hold onto it,

And not let it take control of our life.

But if we evolve that energy then that's the way home. 

Or, as Buddha said,

“Find the face you were before you were born.”

Why wasn't I taught that at school, I asked?

Isn't that the most important thing to learn?

Is that why so many people are on anti-depressants?

Is that why narcissism, depression, schizophrenia

Are the now modern dis-eases?

What is knowledge without emotional intelligence creating on our planet?

Is it fear?

Yet, the prophets say     “Do not be afraid.”            Why?

Because it's the opposite direction to opening the heart?

Because it retards emotional intelligence?